Caveat lector

And its alive!

2009-01-23T13:39:00.002+08:00

Haha i think everyone's come to terms with the death of my blog. But im (attempting to) revive it! Lol. So. I've been from unemployed to employed to unemployed-but-having-temporary assignments currently.

Work's been boring, frustrating, and embarrassing. Yet i've learnt quite alot. From future propects to being a lil more thick-skinned, i must say being able to close sales and meet targets does yield a pretty satisfying effect. :) And the new commission scheme's not bad eithe. In my last pay check i got 96dollars worth of commission. Which is equivalent to 16 more hours of labour! Not bad for 2-3 weeks of work, i must say. I've also learnt to respect people i used to reject and ignore, and notice the wonders of merchandising. So in hindsight this job isn't so bad after all! Not to mention the superiors, as well as co-workers are really nice people.

Personal life's been okay, with arguably ample strawberrytime, and meetings with the respective cliques. :) Recently Joy and i even went on our BIG CLOTH EXPEDITION. Hahaha. Tiring but fun. Everybody else is busy with work. BFF's been plagued by some dilemmas, but unemployed yanyan's always here to lend a listening ear. :3

So life's like that. I've been trying to compartmentalize certain things, and have been rather successful so far. I guess we're meant to move on. Collige virgo rosas; i guess i'll just not think so much. Sit back and enjoy my youth, as it slips slowly and surely away...

help

2008-12-07T19:33:00.002+08:00

Symptoms:
-Weightloss (all time low-43.9kg. tell me that is not healthy for someone 164cm tall)
-bad dizzy spells (getting quite frequent at that)
-loss of appetite
-constant fatigue
-suffocation in small, crowded areas

Am i going to die????? Anyone who can give a diagnosis please do!!!

as the days go by...

2008-11-28T15:34:00.003+08:00

Well. I have done QUITE alot between this post and the previous. Am too lazy to list everything. so shall just highlight.

1. Day-out with Row! :)
Long-awaited shopping trip. We had our nails done! The manicurist was awesome! Price was $6, and she gave us discounts! But what blew me away was her patience. I messed up my newly done nails THRICE and she fixed it everytime! Service with (patient) honour man. LOL. Totally love my new chocolate brown nails, and row her white ones. :) Girls, go to fareast #04-37! Highly recommended. Affordable quality service. :) Visit their website!

2. Britney's Circus Birthday Bash
Simin won invites to this party and invited me! THANKS. :) So we finally went to Zouk to have a look. Velvet Underground made me rather claustrophobic though. We entertained ourselves by trying to down the gross pineapple drink, and watching the couple in front of us PDA. Hahaha. But it was a fun experience, got to people-watch, and the pole dancing was SMOKIN'. Im so gonna learn it and have a pole installed in my bedroom next time. HEH.

3. Joy's prom prep!
Hahaha the girl got her hair and accessories settled, finally! Got pretty shoes and a clutch, plus pretty hair after her $85 haircut and $100 treatment! She looks like a million bucks, so its all worth it, rich girl! ;) Jh accompanied us throughout, and i got a muffin treat cos i finally found the long-awaited screen protector at audiohouse! :) dint dig the salesgirl's eau de cigarettes though. :S

WELL now i shall shower and head out to satisfy my craving for peanutbutter cups! :D

Screw it; this is a rant

2008-11-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

I hereby announce that i am now weighing around 45kg, and have maintained this weight for a week or so. Screw anyone who has anything to say about that. I am sick and tired of hearing "Aiyo why your waist so big?" or "Before i gave birth my weight NEVER exceeded 45kg" when im above 45kg, and "You look so skinny and unhealthy" and "Why do you have no ass? So flat." when im below that benchmark weight. STOP IT ALREADY.

Its not like i deliberately gain or lose weight, i dont diet or whatever. There is such a thing called STRESS. I know you cant pronounce it but you should at least know the bloody meaning right?! Gosh i am SO over this. Please. Stop making me hate the way i look with all these sickass comments. I dont even know what you want. So do i be above or below 45? Make up your bloody mind already. Im sorry im not as curvy as my sister. Its the GENES. We actually get different DNA you know. -rolls eyes. And stop saying that she's fat just cos she has boobs. Stop comparing us. It makes NOONE feel good. Which parent tells a perfectly healthy, goodlooking growing fifteen-year-old that she eats too much? It hurts you know. Even I can feel it.

As Bosola says, "I'll be mine own example." I shall eat, exercise, or whatever as i deem fit. Who cares what you think. I'll be the boss of me. Wei, if you are reading this, i hope you do the same.

Milestone; 23112008

2008-11-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

Today was a big day! After 18years of eating, i finally cooked a full meal for my family+2maids+my grandparents+twin cousins! :D :D :D I did everything, from shopping for the ingredients($46) to chopping them(my fingers are stuck with the smell of garlic now. :S) to cooking! Haha as you can tell, i am totally proud of myself. LOL. I would've taken a picture of my work, but i forgot one dish and by the time i was done with it everyone'd started already. Haha.

Menu for the day
Fried Chyesim with dried shrimp
Broccoli with Scallops
Codfish with Teriyaki Sauce
Fried Garlic Prawns with (minimal) butter
Colourful Chicken Soup

Hehe. Now i just need to learn how to work that damned washing machine!

Its overrrrrrrrr

2008-11-20T10:20:00.000+08:00

Like, seriously. No more studying! I am choosing to ignore the results factor. But the emotions felt yesterday were kinda bland. Others were screaming, cheering and taking pictures, but i was just, numb. Haha. I guess that's a pretty common phenomenon. Elevation followed by a (comic) anticlimax. :X But there really was an element of bathos. For me, at least. Well. Now that i have loads of free time(no concert! sigh) i guess i can finally do things that i want to do! But firstly i must earn the money to afford them. LOL. Anyone has a good recommendation??? I have rather good work attitude, am GENERALLY punctual, and am too wimpy to take long breaks! -beams. HAH self-advert. HAHA.

Anyway, today's the day of the dinner at hyatt!! [cue people who know about it: hahahahahahahahahahahaha. :X]

Not from you

2008-11-18T18:27:00.000+08:00

A tentative look
(a definite picking up of the book)
A buzz, a signal
(a fumbling of the fingers)
A flicker of hope
(yeah, right, nope.)
Because then i knew-
its not from you.

10 random (and possibly lame) things

2008-11-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

haha this list is just to kill time while waiting for my BELOVED SISTER TO FINISH HER BUS SEARCH. -turns and stares at her sister who is currently mumbling bus numbers to herself.

1) I'd like to thank Billie Holiday and Mika, for crooning out nice songs to soothe my frazzled nerves while mugging

2) I wonder if Africa will really replace China if the imperialists followed through with their idealistic promises. (yes im STILL thinking about it)

3) I am sleepy. :(

4) I should really go and collect my radio-alarm clock from my uncle's house

5) I want to watch movies and tv really badlyyy. :( TWO MORE DAYS.

6) I never knew a sincere compliment was capable of being so disgusting till today

7) I just shuddered at the memory of the above. :S

8) I KNOW this post is extremely boring-sorry peeps!

9) I am reaching the end of the said list and my sister is STILL NOT DONE._.

10) I am going (wo)manhandle her back to the room after this.

Omg

2008-11-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

This is so sad! I started bawling right after the minute long video. :'(

eek rubbish post

2008-11-08T12:01:00.000+08:00

This is so not the time to blog. But sigh. I kinda need to express myself. Esp now when my stupid "shoeshine" phone making me type rubbish to everyone. Sorry friends. :(

Sigh. As the Chinese proverb goes, I've a belly full of angst. :( I feel so sick. Of As, of school, of people, of everything. I guess that's what cumulative filtering out of negative feelings and forced cheeriness does to you. Suddenly concerned parents, empathetic people irk you and you feel like just shutting the door to them or running away. The A monster is getting to me. :( I need to do so many things, be worried abt so many ppl/things and it just gets kinda overwhelming. The "look forward and keep moving" tactic seems to be losing effect, and im barely halfway through As.

So everyone who care enough to read this: Im sorry if if ive been taking you for granted and been unappreciative. Im sorry if my results disappoint you. Im sorry for everything.

Another thing- I've learnt to skirt the truth, tell halftruths, lie. Dont know if its a good thing or not. But honesty has proven not to be the best policy. So yeah. IM A TERRIBLE PERSON! i wana move to mars. :(

HAHAHA

2008-10-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

When val told me about it today i thought it'd be sth from SNL. But apparently not.

LOL its quite hilarious! But you'd really have to hand it to her man. Playing this bimbo card for so long now and still being able to make money from it. And its not even like she needs the extra cash! Rich-poor divide much?

/edit/
Oh i just realised the video was a response to a suan frm McCain in one of his speeches. So shes not that dumb after all. :D

theythey; part meme

2008-10-27T13:00:00.000+08:00

Haha comment if you want the questions! ;D

1. Val, Simin
2. Hwee Geok!
3. Im happy with my own. :)
4. Basically everyone who is not evil
5. Val, my sis!
6. Hahaha err me? :X
7. Val, Row
8. I dunno...
9. LDD
10. Anyone but me. I'll cry tgt with them. :X
11. Uh. hg?
12. All my friends:)
13. High profile ppl
14. I agree with val- BRUNO!
15. Hahah delle! Our crossdress-to-town day!
16. My younger sis. X)
17. ME!
18. The Lord. But val's princessy too! :P
19. Everyone but me. :(
20. Everyone's view is different? -doesnt get question
21. ME! MUAHAHAHA
22. AGAIN! MUAHAHAHAHAHA
23. noone! :P
24. scary ppl who GLARE. -shudders
25. Haha i havent been exposed to THAT side of ppl, thankfully. :S
26. Uh, strawberry?
27. Ditto, my family, delle
28. MY SISTER> HAHAHA
29. Strawberry :)
30. BEWARE; THE ATTACK OF THE MUSHROOMS IS COMING

THANKSIES; 23102008

2008-10-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

My eighteenth was a happy one indeed. THANKYOU to all that gave me presents, well-wishes, celebration and FOOD! You know who you are(and obviously so do i), and i love you all! :)

Haha i have to mention, this year's the record-high number of food items i've received! Cake, sweets, cookies, turkish icecream, you name it, i've received it! Heh. Sher's gonna be one big fat happy ball! :D

Once again, thanks everyone!!! I feel loved. :)

2008-10-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

Eek i realised not everything i uploaded was up! :( Rah im too tired to redo it la. If you want a picture we took with my cam just ask aite?

G'nite! |-)

Farewell assembly+route08

2008-10-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

Well im quite tired so let the pictures do the talking! They're not in order, cos im lazy. :P

Well peeps. Disappointed there're no unglam shots uploaded? Well if you were one of my victims today when i found my hidden papparazi talent, feel free to approach me for them! Im not THAT evil as to publish them la. Not yetttttt. ;P

Sucky poem. :X

2008-10-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

Hahaha this is really bad; im glad hardly anyone will see this!
Disclaimer- Im bored, tired, and all burned out from the geog mock today. So..
Caveat Lector!!

Here goesss.

Untitled
(But dedicated to my dear braidy bunch)

We once were little JC ones,
whose aims were just to have some fun.
We burnt a table, rolled around,
and made some really funny sounds*.

We had a blast, but time has come
for us to get some REAL work done.
But after our horrendous As
we'll scream and shout and PLAY!

*refers specifically to val's hyperventilating laughs. :D

Hahaha that was written within the time my sister took to shower. But scan it! I tried to put some rhythm in (OMG ITS DAMN HARD i have a new admiration to them poets now. :S) Iambic tetrameter. Kinda? LOL.

Well thats enough randomness for one night. BYEEE. :)

last words from a failed baker

2008-10-14T12:38:00.000+08:00

Smores. Are. Killer.

-dies from all the sweetness.

O.O

2008-10-12T10:13:00.000+08:00

Okay i dont care if this is fake or old stuff or whatever. Like, wow. It's even in sync with the music!

/edit/

Anyway, school's officially over (last wed)! In an attempt to harness some feelings, delle, val and i compiled a list each, "List of Weird Things I've Done in School (NJC)" I'm up to 70! O.O That's saying something man.

Highlights of my list include:
-Sewing a bra in the canteen
-Entering a boy's toilet when someone's in it [TWICE]
-Calling "Audrey" my bag fat in front of Audrey the person [i didnt knw!!! T.T]
-Rolling & Duckwalking around the track
-Burning a table
-Having teacher digging for gossip frm me
-Saying "BOOBS" during my A level oral presentation
-Faking my way into donating blood
-Wearing a strapless frilly bra for pe and getting caught by delle and val [duno what's wrong with me :/]
-Getting my face stroked by my teacher during GP. :X
-Having the canteen auntie asking me if i wanted HEROIN.

Hahaha there're like manymany more, some of which too embarrassing for publicizing. :X
Damn im weird.

My Bucket List

2008-10-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

I'm making my own Bucket List- "The list of all the things to do before we kick the bucket"
No cliched i-wanna-go-skydiving stuff, partly cos im afraid of heights. :P

1) Have sex. [its so sad to die a virgin!]

2) Visit Macchu Picchu [who says the song didnt have an impact on me!]

3) Go to a Rock Concert [i know im sad la.]

4) Drive a bulldozer [im not giving up on my fantasy!]

5) Own something from Tiffany & Co.

6) Ensure that at least ONE child from the Smoky Mountain/Ethiopia has a basic education [there's only so much i can do, like practically]

7) Produce something that goes on national television [i dream of being an advertiser]

8) Find a sea turtle on my own [no more help frm the guide!]

9) Spend at least one month alone on an island away from home

10) Attend a proper ball [like those Cinderella kind, LOL]

11) Make something all by myself [like a pair of shoes or a vase]

12) Watch an Arsenal Match in the Emirates Stadium!!! [honeymoon dream HAHA]

13) Get married to one i love, and have children [maternal instinct ._.]

14) Excel at a job

15) Buy my parents a house in someplace exotic [maybe i'll get another sibling!]

16) Climb a mountain proper

17) Change somebody's life

18) Build a pineapple house under the sea [:D]

19) Learn how to tango

20) Visit the red light district in Amsterdam

21) Dine out at a fancy restaurant everyday of a week

22) Spend one whole day watching artsy fartsy foreign movies

23) Join a protest march for a cause

24) Get a faith/religion

25) Visit all the global cities in the world

26) Stay at the giraffe manor

27) Attend a red carpet event

28) Attend the weddings of my besties:)

29) Attend the birthday parties of the kids of the above:)

30) Have my own garden [ah sadd i know!]

...And the list goes on. I have so many things i wanna do! Listening to my mom's story abt her colleague's daughter possibly getting leukemia really shakes things up

Meme Virginity

2008-10-01T10:22:00.000+08:00

Heh. No more! (I swear im sucha loser)
This is taken frm Ksah and Teri. :P

Things apply to me are in yellow and comments are in [ ]

I am 5'4" or shorter. [5'4'' on the dot! :@]
I think I'm ugly.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color. [No Way. Black=Asian=Me]
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance. [Guilty! Very. :S]
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses sometimes. [6/6 yooo!]
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. [(because I attract weirdos) same as ksah here]
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.[HATE em]

Family/Home life
I've sworn at my parents.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment
I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.[haha. damn.]
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my finger to something.[my other finger]
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.
[okay. unglam=me :X]

Health
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Travelling
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to France.

Experiences
I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving. [Never-ever!]
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've crashed a car. [Buggy count? Hahaha.]
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.[Not like there're any stars in Singapore. :/]
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten Sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.[WHOOPS sorry TMI]
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've been divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
I've had a crush on someone of the same gender. [in the past]
I've kissed a member of the same gender.
I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger. [Free hugs. :S]
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.[omg cotton balls frm cold storage! too cute to resist!]

Drugs/Alcohol
I've consumed alcohol.
I smoke cigarettes.
I smoke pot.
I regularly drink.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them. [well i needed them to sleep]
I've done hard drugs.
I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
I take cough meds when I'm not sick. [eew!]
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. [3 is the max]

Mental health
I have been diagnosed with depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take anti-depressants.
I have an eating disorder.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.[Best therapy]
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self harm.
I've woken up crying.

Death
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
I have attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.

Random
I can sing well. [Hahaha if 'well' is sarcastic then yes. :x]
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others too easily.
I don't kill bugs.[too afraid]
I curse regularly.
I sing in the shower.[to the horror to everybody at home]
I am a morning person.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic. [ARSENAL WOOT]
I play with my hair. [guilty]
I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat. [but never am]
I've copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake well. [ :( ]
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. [yellow and red]
I don't know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love. [?]
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish. [only if im in the mood]
I love white chocolate. [milk chocolate!]
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces. [nope]
I'm good at remembering names. [nope]
I'm good at remembering dates. [nope. rely on handphone for birthdays. :( ]
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [dont even know if i will pass As. :( ]

Friends (?)

2008-09-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

My daddy is tipsy tonight. And my mom is not angry, for once! She's just rather amused. Wow. Humour. Freud's level 4 defense mechanism! My mommy is pro.

Since im feeling completely braindead and incoherent, might as well blog right? LOL. Today i shall try to categorize the general term "Friend".

Level 1-Un-friend
This is the person you might have been rather close to before, but a conflict occurred and you arent friends anymore. There is nearly always a civilly awkward air between you two. I'd put ex-es, people whom you rejected/ got rejected by, and fallen-out besties in this category.

Level 2- Acquaintance
This is the person you say 'Hi' to for courtesy's sake. Prolly seen each other around, and know each others' names, but besides that and the occasional 'How've you been doing?', barely any more exchange.

Level 3- Fair-weathered friend
This is the kind of person i don't like. They act very chummy with you, but only when they want something. Sad fact, but there are many like that. Perhaps the only thing good about this category of people is that they allow you to use them as well sometimes. Like when you don't want to seem like a loser eating alone in the canteen[ note-i eat alone quite often, but i LIKE it. Haha im a loser:) ] It's like, scratch my back and I'll do yours. Hahaha i always found that phrase amusing. ;D

Level 4- Proximity Friend
This is the friend that you hang out with alot, but only at work/school. You are drawn together by proximity, and spend a huge amount of time together. The person is usually nice, and you get along pretty well, and you probably confide in him/her when in trouble, but you know you wont expect the person to go that extra mile for you; your relationship ends there. Has the potential to move up to higher levels though. Most classmates/ CCA-mates/ colleagues are under this category.

Level 5- Wishful Friend
This friend is the one you ought to treasure but don't. It's really sad, but there is a disparity in the amount of effort put into the friendship between the both of you. This friend is very nice to you, and prolly holds you dear, but somehow you dont reciprocate the feeling of friendship. Instead, you might be apathetic, or even repulsed and feel that this individual is "trying too hard". I dont know how to explain this. Lack of chemistry?

Level 6- Friend Wishful
Haha. What goes around comes around. Now YOU are the wishful friend!

Level 7- Friend
The typical Friend-in-Need. You know you can rely on this one. You dont have to be physically together 24-7, but you are always there for each other. The foundation is well-laid.

Level 8- Good Friend
Mixture of Friend and Proximity Friend. This one is almost always near you, and your friendship transcends the superficial level.

Level 9- Best Friend
This one is the one with the long standing history. You went through glued-at-the-hip stage, or still are in it. But either way, this is the friend you can tell everything and anything to, anytime, anywhere. You are so close you are beginning to even look like each other. At a point, people might have wondered if the both of you were gay, or together( if the other party is of the other sex). This friend is most precious to you, vice versa.

Level 10- Girl/Boyfriend
Well. Doh! ;)

Hahaha if anybody read that, im sorry! Bad post. :S But im feeling random and retarded. So there. :P

RTIWLTS: I've become pretty good at filtering/compartmentalizing already. Either that or no-one cares enough to notice. :)

Sinful...

2008-09-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

Haha i've been eating so much lately. Blame it on the food porn. Makes me hungry even after a FULL meal. -oink. :S

Had Carl's Junior today with bestie Row:) Passed that pretty girl the cute topshop PJs i got for her birthday. :D And after that i got a saybon treat frm LDD. Sher is one happy fat ball. :)

Well since im onto the topic of sinful food. Just gotta admit McDonald's has the best advertising around.

THIS LITTLE PUNK IS ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE! :)

He's dancing to Cha Cha Slide, an updated verson of the electric slide. Its like the Aces Day song for schools in the States. So much better than those techno shyte we get nowadays. :/ But ah wells. No more Aces Days for me! Ever! :P

Quincy was on Oprah, alongside other amazing kids like a toddler who can memorize the world map and this fifteen-year-old who sings WHITNEY HOUSTON's songs. O.O

Joie de vivre

2008-09-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

LAG... Haha that's what my posts seem to doing huh. :S Well lately i dint have much to write about. Went out with quite a few friends, played a little tennis(uneven tan! :@), ran with my daddy... Lol.

Ohh i've been watching quite alot of discovery and nat geo lately! :D Watched stuff like taboo and most evil. Cool shit! Haha.

I have developed a fascination about cults and their charismatic leaders lately. Like Charles Manson and Jim Jones. They are horribly evil, yet you cant help but marvel at their immense power over others. Imagine being able to see everyone's weakness and use it to control them, or to have so much influence on your 900 followers that they'll willingly ingest cyanide just with one order of yours, or just having followers at that! But power corrupts, and cult leaders usually go kinda kuku towards the end. :S

Charisma is often used to describe an elusive, even undefinable personality trait that often includes the seemingly 'supernatural' or uncanny ability to lead, charm, persuade, inspire, and/or influence people.

Wow. Charisma is a talent huh. Haha people usually use that word to categorize attractive people who have no outstanding feature. Like, haven't you heard someone go, "He's not that hot, but i like him... *pauses as she tries to think of a logical explanation of why she does...* OH. He's charismatic!" Hahaha i've been guilty of using the word too broadly as well (not in the context of my rather bimbotic example laa) so i guess we all learn something new everyday! :D

Borrowed metaphor- Filter Funnel

2008-09-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMIN! <3

Funny stuff really keeps blackass thoughts away huh. :)

Hahaha omg this is one fantastic ventriloquist! Plus, he's hilarious as a standup comedian! LOL today my classmates told me i had a talent as an SC, but after checking out the competition, i think i'd better stay outta e game ;D

Hurricane- Exciting at first but ends in disaster. HAHAHA.

I knw the thing says 'no longer available' but just press Play. It works!

"Stop looking at my stee-ek." :D

Lantern Festival

2008-09-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

Haha today's post is gonna be all about the girl whom i share a room with for fifteen years of my life.

NERDY KWOK AKA KWOK SHER WEI :D

Today we were locked out of the house with $135 worth of groceries! T_T

But with each other's company we passed the time quickly. :)

Then at night we went back to the nostalgic habits of our childhood!

We carried lanterns around! X)

Haha we even managed to drag Ria along! :D

Hahaha although it was *a little* embarrassing, we had lotsa fun! :)

Ahaha my sis says i look like a ghost in this one. Whoo~

LOL okay now everyone can see the horribly childish habits of the Sher Sisters. :$ But hey at least we're in touch with our culture right? >.<

Love Your Body

2008-09-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

Whoo today i slept till noon! :D My daddy was like, "Wah. New record ar, follow your sister already." LOL she never fails to sleep in when she can, regardless of whether she slept at 9 or 3 the night before. :X Im turning into my little sister!!!!! :X :X :X Hahaha, my little sister who acts like she's older than me. Anyone who's went out with me and my sis would notice that she's always the one helping me along when i muck up. Haha. Like today.

My new pretty slippers were totally having an episode today. Joy(whom i met up with before my sis came) also asked whats wrong with them today cos they kept tripping me and falling out. But the worst was when i was walking up the stairs at the orchard underpass. I tripped over them and fell with a loud clatter, which reverberated through the passagewat SO LOUDLY i wanted to die. :( And when i fell i made a fervent grab in the air to regain my balance and guess what i grabbed? A MAN'S ANKLE. :$:$:$ So i ended up with a scraped knee, stubbed toe, bruised ego, and an insanely hysterical sister. She couldnt stop laughing la! :/

I was so traumatised all the satisfaction from the awesome salmon-with-creamed-cheese-and-CUCUMBERS( i usually avoid these but this was so good i just ate it:)-on-multi-grained
sandwich i has at Toast with joy disappeared. :=( I ended up relying on serious retail therapy with my sis. Spent like 73bucks at The Body Shop. :X

/edit/
OMG i think im so stupid. Just read two scary Gothic tales just before midnight! :X The Black Cat and The Tell-Tale Heart by Edgar Allen Poe. So scaryyy. -shivers. But i think The Tell-Tale Heart is quite nice. :X

RTIWLTS: I dont understand why. Sigh. :(

Turn on Billie..

2008-09-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

.. is really nice! Haha try it, it's just click away! *points to imeem playlist.*

Anyway, went out with Girlfriend today. :) I bought Simin's gifts, and she got a tube to complement her pretty dresses(WHICH I TOTALLY CANT PULL OFF. :'(!), and we both bought salmon onigiri, which we chomped into at the exact same time, making the exact same crunch sound. Hahaha we laughed so much it was embarrassing. Miss Punctual was fifteen minutes early, while i was five late! :( MUST BE EARLIER THAN DELLE NEXT TIME. -determined.

On the bus journey there, i sat infront of this little old man. He was singing a Cantonese song under his breath. I dont know whether if it was his voice, or the tune, but the song was really soothing, and i found myself enjoying it, instead of being freaked out or irked like how a normal teenage girl would feel if a strange old dude was singing in her ear. It was some love song, but due to my weak grasp of the dialect i couldnt really understand the whole song, just bits and pieces of it. I wanted to tell the uncle his singing was really good, but when i turned around i couldnt speak. His eyes were closed, and i could tell his song was really heartfelt, by the slight grimace on his face, like each note was tugging on his heartstrings. At that moment i felt extremely extremely sad. I dont know why, not even now. Old people make me sad too. :(

Okay im too emo to blog already. :(:(:(

I know im crazy. Sigh.

Ab imo pectore,

2008-09-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

I had quite the awesome day. :) Went to the library, got a lift there(thanks daddy!), got some nice books, and another lift back. Then went to qian hu for fishie spa! LDD got TWO vids of me screeching like some dying piglet. :$ Hahaha it was quite hilarious. I mean i was. Couldnt stop screaming and laughing, it was THAT ticklish. :O Then again the first(and only) time i went for a facial i couldnt stop laughing too, so my threshold for tickling is rather low. :X Dinnered at laopasat. Awesome kebab! Was stuffed to the max! My belt felt SOO tight! :S But Sher is one happy ball. :)

Picture yourself in a boat on a river,
With tangerine trees and marmalade skies
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly,
A girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

O.O They wrote the song in dactylic tetrameter. HOW GAY IS THAT! Granted, they had to extend some syllables, but John Lennon and Paul McCartney so totally poets la can!! GOSH. The Beatles were accused of making references to the drug LSD because that's the acronym of the title of the song, Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, but i think that's just the result of fans with an overactive imagination la huhhh. It's such a pretty title! And the abstractness just makes up the dreamy mood of the song. Even though the kaleidoscope eyes thing DOES make one wonder cos LSD has this special effect, which makes one see coloured and geometric patterns. Hmm. Aiya whatever. I still like the song. :D

RTIWLTS: si vales valeo- if you are well, i am well.
natural reactions are innate and happymaking:)

Woah.

2008-09-08T19:02:00.000+08:00

I havent exercised for so long, so two and half hours of tennis(mostly picking balls HAHA) totally knocked me out! I came home, ate my yummy jellyfish-like veggies (that caused me to take FOUR buses home) and slept for around two and a half hours. :X Now i feel like a pig. Maybe I'll finish that 07 TJC math prelim paper later. So difficult! -launches into her special for-math-only whiny mode. :{

My hand hurts. Specifically the "knees" of my fingers. Like the middle joints. Maybe i've been holding the racquet wrongly. Is my hand even supposed to hurt? :S

Today my dad asked me for my opinion about something. I think i surprised him with my answer. Cos apparently he dint think i'd notice that he'd feel a certain way about stuff. I was surprised too, cos i thought that was very obvious. Makes me wonder, maybe people can see through us, and know what we are thinking even if we thought we arent being obvious. Read like a book. Reminds me of what my lit teacher mr whitby said, "You think I am merely saying hi? I can SEE into your minds..." Creepy! Hahaha. The bystander has the clearest view. So true!

I wanted to blog about sth, but i forgot what. Darn! I've read about this before. Our short term memory lasts only 30 seconds and have limited capacity. So when its full and we're faced with new information dispacement will occur, like the new info will push the old ones outta our mind. So when you walk into a room and forget instantly what you wanted to do or get in that room, its cos the new environment has pushed your motive for going there out of your mind. Hahaha see? IM NORMAL!!! :P

A laugh is a smile that bursts. :D

RTIWLTS: I'll try if you do. And you too. :)

E.E Cummings, and my (irrational?) fears

2008-09-06T11:23:00.001+08:00

"anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn't he danced his did

Women and men(both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn't they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain

children guessed(but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more

when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone's any was all to her

someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hope and then)they
said their nevers they slept their dream

stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt to forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)

one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was

all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
wish by spirit and if by yes.

Women and men(both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain"

AH OMG IM GONNA GROW UP TO BE LIKE SOMEONES AND EVERYONES!!! Unwilling as i may be, to survive in society one has to conform and be self centred!

AHH HELP!!! -fears for her future.

Scaryscaryscary poem!!!

 Okay im done panicking. But this poem is so sad!
And so realistic its scary. –shudders.

The nomenclature really struck a nerve. someones and everyones is so
generic,and totally could apply to EVERYBODY. SO SCARY!

The protagonists anyone and noone are more individualistic,
but their name suggests that such people are so rare they’re like ONE in many,
or NONE of them exists! Eurghhhh im gona die like
someones and everyones, unfulfilled. :’(((

Dinner

2008-09-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

With crescentians is always a blast! :D Met up with Cassandra, Khalisah and Teri in town for mirth and macs today. They havent changed one bit, still so full of life. :) Miss the nonsense, laughter and even the suanings. Its like we were in our classroom crapping in between lessons again. :) Ohoh im supposed to quote this funny part of dinner!

Ksah: ... I ate pork lehh!
Everyone: *stares at her in horror*
Ksah: Just kidding, just kidding!
Cass: Hahaha but you drank before yeah?
Ksah: That was, like, 0.01%? Very little!
Sher: HUH when!
Ksah: Indian poker la.

-After a while-

Teri: Uhhh I dont get it... You drank PORK?

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! It was HILARIOUS! Ksah and cass laughed the house down mann. She's so cute right! ;D Cant wait for our next gathering. Hopefully then we'll have the whole clique, instead of just half.

My mom was quite cute today as well. She came back all happy, and told me, "Today people say your mummy very pretty leh. *smiles*" LOL.

RTIWLTS: Patience is ALWAYS a virtue. ;)

You are absurd
You say the cutest things I've ever heard
I don't think I can take another word
Oh my head might explode and I will have to go to heaven

It's Friday!!

2008-09-05T11:50:00.001+08:00

Whichistersay, the last day for relaxation!!! Its gonna be back to the books(not future, HAHA) after todayyy! :( Goodbye shopping, movies, catching up which old friends, indulgence in yummy chow, and slacksville at home, and hello books, notes(paper), notes(online), TYS-es, my sticker-covered GC and file, and PENS! Hmm. Somehow i dont feel as dreadful as i make myself out to be. I suppose there's a sanctuary even in mugging. You dont have to think about anything else except for the sum you are tackling, or some stupid difficult abstract concept. The focus(if achieved) can be kind of comforting, as an escape, especially if you're stuck in some situation with friends, or family, or whatever. So Students, embrace the art of MUGGING! :D

LOL i talk so highly of studying, but in actual fact its not as easy as it sounds. You might be stressed,

or end up plain retarded,

But hopefully, the end results will be worthwhile.

So, everyone, STUDYYYYY! :p

OMG I"VE GOTTA FLY!!! BYEE.

The Pierces

2008-09-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

In my haste to upload the video “Secret” last night [ignore the time reported, its wrong], I neglected to give the talented band who sang it a proper introduction.

The Pierces are two disturbingly hot sisters from Alabama who are really talented. I dont think they were very famous before their latest album, Thirteen Tales of Love and Revenge(2007), but this album is awesome! It showcases a wide range of styles and genres, using instruments such as an accordion, a calliope, bassoons, a sitar, violins, an autoharp, and a Hawaiian lap steel. Their image reminds me of the stereotypical gothic girl who is extremely hot despite her inclinations toward unorthodox beliefs and weird habits. They are smart, have actual musical talent, and are eccentrically sexy. I like their victorian vintage style. Very classy. :) Check them out at their myspace page.

On a side note, I wanna change my style! Or widen it at least. :) I got a Bohemian inspired dress/top today and its a nice change from my usual babydoll/empire-cut/tanktops&shorts style. Makes me wonder if i can pull off other kinds of clothes *victorian/vintage like The Pierces!* Heh. :D

BUT. Money(or the lack of which) poses as a problem, so if you wish to donate to the save-sheryan's-sad-fashion-sense-fund you're more than welcome to! ;)

I'd like new frocks please. ^^

RTIWLTS: Overexposure to glamorous(BIG-SHOT) people makes one feel rather small...

2008-09-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO! FINALLY FOUND IT! AFTER MORE THAN ONE HOUR!! This is one awesome song, its gothic and dark qualities are brought out by juxtaposition of the light hearted tune. The sisters are so freakishly hot! :) And Im only one hour late! The deadline was yesterday. -winks at lord dindin.

Okay now i wana watch gossip girl. For this song! :D

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead…

2008-09-03T13:08:00.001+08:00

If, you ever see this, HAPPY EIGHTEENTH VAL! <3

Okay. Blame it on my short attention span, but im kinda sick of blogging alr. :S LOL. But yesterday was a fun day. :) Went out with bestie, ROW! x) Havent shopped like that in ages. And catching up! :) Dint realise how much we missed each other. But i love the way in which we can just come together after a long long time and just chat like there's no tomorrow. :) Usually i dont have enough patience to scour the many little aisles of Bugis Street, but yesterday we did. And with much yield! :D The bargains there are seriously cheap. Makes me wonder about their cost price though. :\ Oh wells. Perhaps next year i can tag along when she goes to Bangkok to collect stock for her online store! Must save up mannn. Speaking of which, my financial status has reached an all-time-low from yesterday. Shucks i must save up even more to cover for the losses. Birthday season's around the corner! -visualizes birthday presents eclipsing the sun. Ta-ta-ta-TAAA. Hahaha.

RTIWLTS: New good remedy-->Song. :D

2008-09-01T12:44:00.000+08:00

Wow. Yesterday was.. Eventful. Went out with clique! :) It was very nice to spend time with everyone out of the classroom, or breaktime concept. We celebrated Val's birthday! :D Went early(for once!) after getting the pretty bouquet and met delle. We tied up the loose end of the gifts and bought food. Then jh arrived and we waited for the rest, watching the trailer for housebunny a million times. Im SO gonna watch that show. :P 12 Lotus was incredibly sad!! Duno why people said its similar to 881. The only similarity is the theme of getai, and the cast. It totally reminded me of the picturehouse film, Justine, with all the betrayals and rape scene. :S Its a good thing 12Lotus is not m18 too. :X Delle and i found one particular scene extra sad, where the protagonist reads the goodbye message on her mirror and laughs maniacally due to the trauma of realization, and crams her favourite comfort food into her mouth. I started crying then, and couldnt stop throughout the show. :X Joy and Val were just bawling throughout the whole thing. LOL. Weird choice of movie for a celebration, but i think noone regretted it. Royston Tan is good! I liked the setting, and found all the props really believable and pretty in a darkdark way. The old powerpoints with the peeling paint, and vintage furniture had me strangely fixated. I found myself looking at the backdrop instead of the actors sometimes. Hahah I know im weird. :S

Leung joined us for dinner, at Manhattan Fish Market downstairs. I was so amazed by their flaming prawns! Theo and i shared them, and the sauce was so yummy we asked for more-flamed too! :) The service was really good too. A definite-returner. :) We couldnt get val any cake cos they all had milk in them, so we asked leung to buy a pie(apple or sth) as substitute. It was hilarious, cos he misunderstood our meaning of pie and got Val a Lemon Fish Pie! Lol. But it was all good. :) The pictures we took might be lost though. :( But the memories are here forever. :):):)

RTIWLTST(shld make shorter acronyms! Cant rmb. X):
Without Love, there is no Pain,
Without Pain, there is no Love
-quote from 12 Lotus

so apt.

So,

2008-08-30T14:22:00.000+08:00

Let's have a brief summary of my life:

1. Demographics
I am a chinese female, seventeen going on eighteen, currently in Enjaycee(always wanted to call nj that, LOL)'s extremely pathetically miniature arts faculty, hoping wishing praying to pass Prelims. I have two parents, a sister and Ria living with me, and i am with the Best Strawberry in the world. :)

2. Interests
Refer to demographics. School and loved ones. Sums it up. Hahaha. Well apart from those major parts of my life, I am a huge (kind of disconnected 'cause of prelims) fan of Arsenal, the best club in the world!! [eat your heart out, ManU! :P] I used to play the saxophone(recently) and do tapdance(not so recently) so I suppose I like many things from the awesome age, the Jazz era. Im anachronism personified! :D I also like seemingly TIT-ish stuff like shopping for pretty things. Definition of TIT: Taitai-in-Training. This silly term has been used on me countless times by Mr. Strawberryzai, many of which on occasions where it is UNCALLED for. ;P Aside from that, I have many phases and crazes that come and go. Currently, these temporal temptations include my new silly putty, my Holga, the stupid anime series Karin, tennis, the chocolate puffs from somewhere in Tanjong Pagar (I WILL FIND THE SHOP), and lazing around. The last temptation is actually permanent, but has to stop on account of the DREADED 'A's. :(

3. Personality (im treating this as a self-written testimonial already)
I am selfish, demanding and irrational. But self awareness is the first step to improvement, no? My strive to be a better person, though slow, has earned me many people whom are dear to me. They fuel my desire to improve, so i can say this is a positive cycle. :) I detest smokers, pervs and plans that fail(although mine always do. Sigh.) and like laughs, and people and things that make me laugh.

4. Stage of Life
Quoting theo, a caesura. Taking a slight breather after prelims before returning to the books for the DREADED 'A's._. Today is a sloth-y day before activities activities activities. In chronological order, these include Outing with Clique to Celebrate Val's 18th and the End to Prelims, First Date in Fasting Month with Strawberry, and One-Day Out with Bestie Row. Anticipation anticipation! :)

Well i suppose that's about it. If you are wondering where the element of threnody fits in, just wait. The laments will start once i hit the books again!

Random thing i would like to say (RTIWLTS): I am not a puttputt!

Firstly,

2008-08-30T14:04:00.000+08:00

It's been a long while! Hah i dint tell anyone the address of this new blog so i suppose its sheryan writing to sheryan for now.

...

Okay now i feel retarded. :X
Well, IN THE CASE that somebody(berry) does read this, this is the story of my life-a threnody! Lol i figured since i like to complain so much about everything, my narcissistic webpage might as well be a death lament eh? I'd like to think of myself as one of those people who actually give meaningful insights on things that actually matter but since noone, or minimal people are going to read this, i shan't bother. So too bad, read the mundane details of my ordinary
Singaporean life or just bring your voyeuristic tendencies elsewhere(the latter is recommended :P)