And its alive!

Haha i think everyone's come to terms with the death of my blog. But im (attempting to) revive it! Lol. So. I've been from unemployed to employed to unemployed-but-having-temporary assignments currently.

Work's been boring, frustrating, and embarrassing. Yet i've learnt quite alot. From future propects to being a lil more thick-skinned, i must say being able to close sales and meet targets does yield a pretty satisfying effect. :) And the new commission scheme's not bad eithe. In my last pay check i got 96dollars worth of commission. Which is equivalent to 16 more hours of labour! Not bad for 2-3 weeks of work, i must say. I've also learnt to respect people i used to reject and ignore, and notice the wonders of merchandising. So in hindsight this job isn't so bad after all! Not to mention the superiors, as well as co-workers are really nice people.

Personal life's been okay, with arguably ample strawberrytime, and meetings with the respective cliques. :) Recently Joy and i even went on our BIG CLOTH EXPEDITION. Hahaha. Tiring but fun. Everybody else is busy with work. BFF's been plagued by some dilemmas, but unemployed yanyan's always here to lend a listening ear. :3

So life's like that. I've been trying to compartmentalize certain things, and have been rather successful so far. I guess we're meant to move on. Collige virgo rosas; i guess i'll just not think so much. Sit back and enjoy my youth, as it slips slowly and surely away...

help

Symptoms:
-Weightloss (all time low-43.9kg. tell me that is not healthy for someone 164cm tall)
-bad dizzy spells (getting quite frequent at that)
-loss of appetite
-constant fatigue
-suffocation in small, crowded areas

Am i going to die????? Anyone who can give a diagnosis please do!!!

as the days go by...

Well. I have done QUITE alot between this post and the previous. Am too lazy to list everything. so shall just highlight.

1. Day-out with Row! :)
Long-awaited shopping trip. We had our nails done! The manicurist was awesome! Price was $6, and she gave us discounts! But what blew me away was her patience. I messed up my newly done nails THRICE and she fixed it everytime! Service with (patient) honour man. LOL. Totally love my new chocolate brown nails, and row her white ones. :) Girls, go to fareast #04-37! Highly recommended. Affordable quality service. :) Visit their website!

2. Britney's Circus Birthday Bash
Simin won invites to this party and invited me! THANKS. :) So we finally went to Zouk to have a look. Velvet Underground made me rather claustrophobic though. We entertained ourselves by trying to down the gross pineapple drink, and watching the couple in front of us PDA. Hahaha. But it was a fun experience, got to people-watch, and the pole dancing was SMOKIN'. Im so gonna learn it and have a pole installed in my bedroom next time. HEH.

3. Joy's prom prep!
Hahaha the girl got her hair and accessories settled, finally! Got pretty shoes and a clutch, plus pretty hair after her $85 haircut and $100 treatment! She looks like a million bucks, so its all worth it, rich girl! ;) Jh accompanied us throughout, and i got a muffin treat cos i finally found the long-awaited screen protector at audiohouse! :) dint dig the salesgirl's eau de cigarettes though. :S

WELL now i shall shower and head out to satisfy my craving for peanutbutter cups! :D

Screw it; this is a rant

I hereby announce that i am now weighing around 45kg, and have maintained this weight for a week or so. Screw anyone who has anything to say about that. I am sick and tired of hearing "Aiyo why your waist so big?" or "Before i gave birth my weight NEVER exceeded 45kg" when im above 45kg, and "You look so skinny and unhealthy" and "Why do you have no ass? So flat." when im below that benchmark weight. STOP IT ALREADY.

Its not like i deliberately gain or lose weight, i dont diet or whatever. There is such a thing called STRESS. I know you cant pronounce it but you should at least know the bloody meaning right?! Gosh i am SO over this. Please. Stop making me hate the way i look with all these sickass comments. I dont even know what you want. So do i be above or below 45? Make up your bloody mind already. Im sorry im not as curvy as my sister. Its the GENES. We actually get different DNA you know. -rolls eyes. And stop saying that she's fat just cos she has boobs. Stop comparing us. It makes NOONE feel good. Which parent tells a perfectly healthy, goodlooking growing fifteen-year-old that she eats too much? It hurts you know. Even I can feel it.

As Bosola says, "I'll be mine own example." I shall eat, exercise, or whatever as i deem fit. Who cares what you think. I'll be the boss of me. Wei, if you are reading this, i hope you do the same.

Milestone; 23112008

Today was a big day! After 18years of eating, i finally cooked a full meal for my family+2maids+my grandparents+twin cousins! :D :D :D I did everything, from shopping for the ingredients($46) to chopping them(my fingers are stuck with the smell of garlic now. :S) to cooking! Haha as you can tell, i am totally proud of myself. LOL. I would've taken a picture of my work, but i forgot one dish and by the time i was done with it everyone'd started already. Haha.

Menu for the day
Fried Chyesim with dried shrimp
Broccoli with Scallops
Codfish with Teriyaki Sauce
Fried Garlic Prawns with (minimal) butter
Colourful Chicken Soup

Hehe. Now i just need to learn how to work that damned washing machine!

Its overrrrrrrrr

Like, seriously. No more studying! I am choosing to ignore the results factor. But the emotions felt yesterday were kinda bland. Others were screaming, cheering and taking pictures, but i was just, numb. Haha. I guess that's a pretty common phenomenon. Elevation followed by a (comic) anticlimax. :X But there really was an element of bathos. For me, at least. Well. Now that i have loads of free time(no concert! sigh) i guess i can finally do things that i want to do! But firstly i must earn the money to afford them. LOL. Anyone has a good recommendation??? I have rather good work attitude, am GENERALLY punctual, and am too wimpy to take long breaks! -beams. HAH self-advert. HAHA.

Anyway, today's the day of the dinner at hyatt!! [cue people who know about it: hahahahahahahahahahahaha. :X]

Not from you

A tentative look
(a definite picking up of the book)
A buzz, a signal
(a fumbling of the fingers)
A flicker of hope
(yeah, right, nope.)
Because then i knew-
its not from you.